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My disturbing desire
written by insanebitch200012:01 PM 10/15/04These perverted thoughts
Of things I want done
Thoughts that would be another's nightmare
But are my ideas of fun
Want to feel powerless
Completely controlled
Cannot escape
Be pushed and pulled
Make me cry
Make me feel scared
Give me disrespect
Make me feel you never cared
Knock me down
And make me fight
Never let me win
Do things you know are not right
Don't let me know what is going to happen
Make me wonder if I am going to live
Take what you want
Even if I am not willing to give
These horrid thoughts consume me
And they grow stronger every day
Something must be wrong with me
Want you to violate me in every way
In my head I want it
But deep in my soul I do not
I will scream and tell you no
But never want you to stop
Do not know where they came from
But these visions are coming more
Visions of you standing over me
While I am lying on the floor
I want it to happen
But then will wish it never did
These thoughts are too strong and coming out
Thoughts long ago I hid
What am I thinking?
And why are they here
Why do I want something
That brings so much fear
I want to be a victim
But not for an excuse
Why do I have a craving
For such violent abuse
It is starting to scare me
The things I want done
It is scaring me
That this is my idea of fun |
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