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i'm sitting here
written by Schizophrenic_broken09:02 PM 11/16/04i'm sitting...
in the same chair
as every night
have to do something
or i might cut again
which i dont want to do
staring at the P.C screen
writting poems again
reading poems like every day
i'm sitting...
wearing a black hoodie
that once belonged
to someone else
with the name of a band
long ago forgotten
enscribed on the front
but its got long sleaves
to cover the cuts all up my arm
i'm sitting...
staring at my phone
wishing that a friend would call
although i know they wont
waiting for a text from someone
yet i know it will never come
its as if i'm the only person alive
that ever has credit on my phone
so i know that no ones gunna call
i'm sitting....
thinking how ironic it is
a moment ago i was cutting myself
with the breadknife from the kitchen
yet now i'm calm and writing this
like i'm a different person
thinking perhaps the doctors
actually got it right for once
when they called me schizophrenic
i'm sitting...
wondering in my broken illusion
if me and her will ever be mates
deep inside the real me tells me no
yet hyper happy me is saying yes
dont know who is right no more
especially dont know who's wrong
i'm confusing myself with the voices
arguing in my confused broken mind
i'm sitting...
dreaming of the past that i once had
all the popularity and dreams of mine
i guess deep down i knew it wouldnt last
because that wasnt real to me just fake
yet it could have been different couldnt it
i'm sure they all dont really have to hate
but still they do because they were told
that i was stupid and a bloody fucking bitch
People have hurt me though,
saying i was two faced
saying i'm a bitch and shit
stuff that i cant take
somedays i think
i've lost it
that i cant take it no more
yet the world wont let
me go
wont let me die
believe me i've tryed
so that's why
i'm sitting...
here today
like everyday
in the same chair
to face thee life ahead
just...
sitting... |
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| » Comments / Feedback | by Living_hurts (11-16-2004 - 09:46 PM)
| Wow, i love that poem. It's so good. You're amazing at expressing what you mean, its great. I like your stuff. Keep writing :) Love Lucy ~xXx~ |
by letmewatchyousleep (11-17-2004 - 12:02 AM)
| really really good one of the best |
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