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Decision
written by lost_cause06:05 PM 11/30/04I can't even begin to descibe the pain I feel...
I guess I could start with a "Hi, I'm Amber and I cut myself" but that would be too much like a formal occasion...
I am lost... I don't know who I am and I don't have anyone that understands me... Or will talk to me about it... I can't handle anything... No one sees me... I like not being seen but I want someone to understand and confide in me that they feel the same...
I just want something that I can call special... Something I will never lose or get rid of... Something that is only mine...
I don't know anything anymore...
I guess the rational thing to do would be to talk to someone... But I can't... No one gets it...
I'm not a very rational person anyway... I figure "Hell the sooner I kill myself the better..."
I can't do it... I love too many people that don't have the same love for me...
This is just a ranting though I still haven't decided if I really want to die or not yet... But all this talking could get me into serious therapy again...
Oh well.. That would be the best thing, you know... But I don't care what is best for me... Nothing turns out positive anyway...
I hate when I feel bad... That's why I hate feeling... When I cut I go numb... I like to be able to see blood and feel physical pain... It rids me of the emotional torment I go through...
Well I don't really have a whole lot more to say... Wish me the best I guess... I'll decide later on an actual decision.. |
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| » Comments / Feedback | by hiramboy14 (11-30-2004 - 07:37 PM)
| great poem u2u me sometime and we can chat |
by hiramman13 (11-30-2004 - 07:38 PM)
| great poem u2u me sometime so we can chat |
by lost_cause (11-30-2004 - 08:51 PM)
| hiramboy14 don't give me that shit! You stole my poems so FUCK OFF! |
by farm_dog_66 (12-1-2004 - 07:45 PM)
| hiramboy14 is pig though you sound pretty sexy u2u me sometime. |
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