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If it's not real it feels right
written by XpaperdollX09:43 PM 2/20/05| Some spend there lives looking for that person. You know the one that makes you laugh for no reason the one who makes your heart skip a beat. The sweetest guy or girl you every thought you could meet the one who seems to cast away all your agony all you pain that you have felt for years. The one who seems to bring you back to life the one who gives you a reason to breath he or she gives you that reason to want to wake up in the morning. They make your eyes sparkle even when something terrible went wrong that day. Why? Why do you look why not let him or her come to you. I have spent my short life running for this person I ran around fore times in the same place. I even ran in a circle. Shamefully I always thought I had found him, but through all the torment, abuse, humiliation and rejection. I looked in the mirror and told myself I would never ever think that I loved any one I would never let those three disgusting words slip past my lips. It only brought me tears. At the time I was naïve thought I new everything I thought I was only putting myself down. The only thing I was doing was preparing myself for the real thing the real deal. I was young and did not know yet how to love. Until the day I met him. First I stopped and promised myself I would not throw myself in his arms. It was harder then I thought. I spent nights as an insomniac writing like a mad women telling myself that I did not feel as I thought I did for him. I couldn’t sleep I was Wide a wake until the next time I would see you. Sitting by the phone hoping you would call me if just to hear your voice. For the first time I was smiling every word you told me I gripped on it I held your dreams and locket them In a box. Your secrets where keep inside of me. You would always tell me you love me. until the day that I broke the promises to myself. “I love you too” My blood ran and my heart jumped out. For once I truly meant it. Close your eyes for rejection but always know that hope is there. Open your eyes to “new love” always know that someday it will be real. Even if it’s not real it feels right. |
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