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Once upon a lifetime
written by Bloodfilledcinnabuns10:16 PM 3/14/05Only once in a lifetime
Do you find a true friend
At least that’s what they say
Who will stay with you till the end
Not so true with me
Oh no, I found three
The first was long ago
Before the other two came along
Before I had grown enough
To know something was wrong
He left so soon, so fast
No wonder our friendship didn’t last
His leaving left many happy memories
But it had also left a deep scare within
One that would be long in healing
Then my life was sent into a spin
The second came into my life
Cutting through my defenses like a knife
It was rather hard for me
To get close to her at first
I kept thinking about him
I’d imagine the worst
She’d have to leave me as well
My life would be a living hell
But as I fought
With the battles inside
Along came the third
My will was surely tried
For as you can see
The third was a he
I tried to befriend him
The best as I could
But the past kept coming up
And the memories were not good
They kept going back to what was before
And what if this friendship ended in nevermore?
I’d get so scared
And try to push both away
Acting as if I didn’t care
Whether they went or would stay
But then it dawned on me
This isn’t the way a friendship should be
My insecurities diminished
My doubts were given excuses
My walls were battered within
No matter how much it refuses
Truly getting to know them for the first time
My life had become simply sublime
When everything was going
As good as could be expected
The third had to leave
I felt utterly rejected
The insecurities and doubts, as well as the fears
Had resurfaced once more, after so many years
The scar inside
That came from before
Had me hurting again
It ripped open once more
I couldn’t take it, it was too much to handle
I though of giving up, snuffing them like a candle
I stamped on those feelings
For they had been wrong
Our friendship would last
Our friendship was strong
I was determined to keep my friendships alive
Into that pit of emotion, I would not take a dive
The second unknowingly
Helped me to deal
Just be being there
She helped me to heal
The feelings of loss were losing the fight
I had my friends there; my strength, my might
No more thoughts
No more doubts
No more nights
Of crying bouts
Those days had passed when I felt prone
To the feelings of lost, of being alone
My friends were there
Always by my side
Never again would I crawl
Inside myself and hide
No longer were they simply the second and third
They were special, unique; the way I preferred
I called to mind
A saying of old
One friend is silver
While another is gold
In this lifetime of mine, it was twice that I found a friend
Who will stay with me, will be with me till the end |
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Author's footnotes and comments on this Poem:
Ya i know its out there but tday iam just having an out there kinda day.....if you no whta i mean
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