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And I Wait-
written by Poison Ivy03:36 AM 9/18/04Every day I weep with the thought of my life being the way it should be.
I pray to a god who ignores my prayers
that I will soon wake from this dream.
every day I think of a new way to die,
but every time I fail to escape this prison
i am saved when i want the least,
to escape from the bond that cannot be broken.
I weep behind blind eyes
and try to cry out even though I am a mute.
Mutilated by my bloody tears
and my attempts to bleed
mangled by the light beaming through the rips and tears
of my window curtain
by the light of my greatest enemy. . .the sun
I am a monster in the mirror
and without a reflection I still see those empty pupils staring back at me
waiting for me to make a move for freedom. . .from myself
from the shackles of which I locked onto my ankles
and looking for the key that I threw away.
I walk through the tunnels of my blood
and the listen to the recordings of my cries
as i follow the trail I set to my own death.
And though I am the cause of this is , and I cannot find a way to reverse this chaos
my inner demons come out to feed on my growing fear
and the blood of my self inflicted wounds
as I cry more for them to as an invitation for more to come
and feel the jaws of them all at my throat.
I wait and I wait and I wait for their appetites to be filled
but sadly I’ve been waiting for so long
I’ve lost track of the date.
I curl up in the corner of my imagination
and watch them eat the hope left in me alive
misunderstood by the black clothes and the makeup I wear
by my interest in death.
avoided for my sick state of mind
for the scars on my wrists.
For my pail skin and my twisted brain
is all I have and don’t even cherish
an ugly face and a body no one would want is what I have
but I cant wish it away ,
if only I could.
so I wouldn’t weep for a life no one should have to live
to find the key I threw away
to correct the mistakes i made.
but sadly I still wait and I wait and I wait
for my prayers to be answered by a god who ignores me
that I will soon wake from this so-called dream. . . |
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