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Ill Fated Love
written by Poison Ivy03:51 AM 9/18/04What have i done?
What havent i done?
One question to settle it all
And what do i say?
All i know is to agree
And where did that lead us?
Nowhere but here. . .
Are you scared to love,
to love me
For whom i am?
Was i too much
Not enough?
What did i do?!
Your voice rings in my head
the laughing
the screaming
it wont go away!!!
Im trying to forget you
But it doesnt seem to be working!!!
You have left your mark on me, love
one so deep and wide
one to scar the image of me
Forever.
One to remind me of something else
in life i couldnt have
Something more i have to miss.
Youre not ready to love?
How is that possible?
How is that provable?
When i was more then ready.
I was too empty before
And i heard you speak.
Now, its gone.
No more laughs
no more pain
no more of your love to look for
no more to seek
i now crawl
lower then i did before
i bleed more and longer then i used to
murder, thats what i want
no for you but for me. . .
Not for you but for me.
theres no reason to smile
or laugh, nor to dream
just to lead myself down this misery stream
flowing with the blood of my self-inflicted wounds
of your name and mine
in this rotting body
then why isnt everything just fine?!
Now i dont sleep
in fear of being haunted
by the bleeding image of your face
by the piercing sound of your voice
and the sight of your blood splashing on my skin
i have watched you before
i felt your cheek
i have tasted your blood
and how so i miss it.
I have seen you beneath the covers of your bedroom
and the key you did hold.
I dont want to miss you
but how can i not?
How can i just forget a dream come true?!
How can you forget?
I will still give everything to win you back
although i doubt my ill-fated attempts will succeed
im back to where i started
without knowing i am loved
without a reason to wake up in the morning
to believe i am nothing
that i am heartless
when i know that i cry and i laugh
but not for the good i see.
How can i pick up the threads of an old life
and continue what i knew before
when i know only in time
it will be a while before going back. . . |
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