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Chronicals of me 4
written by lost_cause12:48 AM 9/20/04| talking to you tonight is what made me realize how important i am how much you need me how i keep you alive when you think of how the end is near you think of me and things get clear i help you have something to live for and that makes me feel happy like im needed somewhere like you love me more than i deserve but i like it im sorry im not quite the best but i try and when you told me about the sparkle in my eye i loved how you cried i almost died to hear that i made you that happy and i made you that sad it hurt but i loved how you made me feel loved like when i used to sing and watch all the birds you used to listen i was only one or two then but when i wanted you i would say granny im up and you would come in and show me so much love that i felt something that made me smile i would smile and you saw the bright green of my eyes you said they would sparkle it was a lovely surprise you said now its gone and i couldnt of helped it because i didnt do it my dad did and when he left me alone my mom did the same and you were my only solid home then when sean came around and made you stay away you told me how you would walk by our house everyday and how you would hope to see me a minute but you couldnt stay because it would get me hit later that night and how many times you said you cried you missed me so much you loved me so much i love how you tell me that it makes me feel so good and when mom left that bastard she let you see me again it wasnt pretend it was everything i wanted and more how much i adored you you were everything to me the only thing i ever had to hold me up and never leave me alone you were there for the smiles you were there for the frowns you were my world and you were even there when it was turned upside down like when mom got with tom and moved me far from you i hated her i cried because i wanted you and i love to know that you missed me that much then when you moved you were just within touch i loved staying weekends and making cookies with you you have been there for me in all that ive been through you will always be there and i couldnt leave you especially knowing what hell youve been through because of me well sort of its not really my fault it just involved me and im glad that youre here with me today and i would die if you died so keep fighting really hard i love you goodbye is always the hardest part but i know it will come and when it does i will never again see the sun it will go out when you leave me i need you to love me so keep fighting please think of me and jessie and the sparkle in our eyes i know its gone but when im with you i feel it like you bring it to life and i will try so hard to get it back and get out of this hell but i dont know my way around too well i will try to break this spell and for now i am going to go i love you i miss you and you make me feel important so know that im there and i will always care dont give up you can try enough and fight it that fucking disease is no match for your strength i know it |
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