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...just friends...
written by IceBound11:28 PM 10/5/04believe me this really hard for me to put into words...
i so much want to tell you how i feel
and yet, there's a part of me telling me not to
i've gone over it so many times in my head
how i would tell you
how i would hold you
how i would kiss you...
but then i pull out and realize that im dreamin
i'm happy with what we have
with what we are...
"just friends"
though i want so much more
i fear it would be to much to take in
too much to the point of no return
our friendship as we know it
would cease to exist
you could deny it all you want
and believe me, i don't doubt you for a second
but it just wouldn't work....
i believe you would try and and make it work
but you and I both know that it would be so hard to hide
to hide what happend, to hide what is,
and i promise, what will not go away so easily
i will always feel this way for you
i haven't felt this way for anyone
and i'm well aware that you've heard that before too
but i swear it, on my life
that i would never lie to you
especially about something as serious
as important, as the way i feel for you
like i said; i have no idea what the hell i'm sayin
i just want to make this very clear to you
that i appreciate your friendship
and honesty, and for all that you've given me
you mean so much to me
and that is why i don't want to hurt you
your better than that,
i'd rather have an everlasting friendship,
than to have an ever-hateful world of hurt...
toward each other...
my heart is tellin me to hold you...
but my mind is tellin me to push you away...
i'm sorry I didn't know how to speak my heart
until it was to late
just when i thought i would tell you,
I froze...forever missed what should've been my fate
minutes and seconds went...slowly by,
and i regret letting my mind take over
It's time to just breathe and focus
but how can I when the air is so cold and empty?
I'll be honest,
the happy ending i always go for,
now, is even harder to accomplish
and the smiles are getter harder and harder to fake
what do i have to do to end this?
happiness is an emotion i was born without...
without it, i make my own problems,
and destroy my best hopes,
and fuck up the only things i love...
I watched my dreams die,
crash to the ground
but i meant so well, tried to hard,
devoted every part of my soul, and for what?
i'm not saying all this for sympathy, it's just that,
I never really thought i'd wind up by myself
everyday is a way for me to turn back
but i find myself lost
All the things i see now are different from what i imagined
all i can do now is believe in what i feel
i've always followed my heart...
but in this case...
i'll have to pass...
i will always be here for you
as you were for me...my friend... |
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Author's footnotes and comments on this Poem:
jus a lil sumthin i needed to get out there...
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| » Comments / Feedback | by just _me (10-6-2004 - 02:22 AM)
by Death Fairy (10-6-2004 - 02:49 AM)
by angie_24 (3-16-2005 - 05:08 PM)
| wow! what a great poem...i can really relate to that poem. |
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