Look out the window,
It's all dark and lonely out there,
It's all cold and it makes me shiver,
Think about it,
Is that any different to what I feel?
I'm just letting people down,
I'm upsetting the people that mean the most,
I'm hurting Lucy through a misunderstanding,
In which the fault is all mine,
I'm concemplating pills,
These small white tablets look so freindly,
Who's the better freind,
The blade or the tablet?
I'm hating the life I lead,
I despise the pain I cause,
Especially when I hurt those that mean so much,
When I inflict pain upon the ones whom I love,
I'd just like to say sorry,
For having such a dream.
But baby I'll never betray you,
I hope you can believe,
I seem to have done so many things,
To push you and me apart,
But none of them are intentional,
I hope we can be forever,
Like I wish so every night,
When we stop talking I get so restless,
Just thinking of you by my side.
Little hallucinations,
Are haunting my lonely mind,
A little brown bottle,
That I've never seen before,
Is lying infront of me,
With the cap off,
A little butchers knife,
Is hanging on the coathook,
If only they were real,
If they were as real as my pain,
I wouldn't be here. |
