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Feelings
written by IceBound11:36 PM 10/27/04i feel you flow through my body, like the blood in my veins
soon i will hear the cradles rocking, driving me insane
you can't even say your sorry, but in my heart you'll remain
this pain i feel has haunted me for so long,
this shame i can't resist, too strong
blame no one but you, because you are so wrong
your flame has burned my surface, but it's given me new ground to stand on
i know you are my father, but your love i can't sustain
i won't love you much longer, and we'll never be the same
i erase you slowly from my life, yes dad, you're the one to blame
i know that cold feeling underneath my skin,
it's your blood in my veins
the choking sound of my heart stopping,
felt anger's kiss, couldn't keep my patience from dropping
a vision of you and your son, my throat is knotting,
comes as a nightmare, listening to my brother's cradle rocking
forever i sit alone asking myself, "how could you choose him over us?"
i regret ever loving you... if only i knew you'd make me break
anger rising fast, hellinside wants me to wake
all your bullshit driving me insame
can't believe you fucked that whore, and thought you could stay
i hope you two burn in hell for this game you've played
and i'll be there too, because of all my shame
never will i accept your apoligies from the mind
i know i'll never commit adultry, never end up like you
the disappointment... you lied to me, your own son
paintings on the wall bleeding, leaving this stain
cried so hard, i cried in vein
never coming back, your love's down the drain
i'll remember your everyday bullshit
it's different not hearing your voice in the morning
i'm movin on, i found a way
mom doesn't cry anymore,
before, i was afraid,
now it's different, baby brother on the way
you'll be his full-time father but in my hear you'll remain |
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Author's footnotes and comments on this Poem:
To the Bastard that fucked up my life,
as well as my family's... my dad
(written by Jaron Nuñez,
revised by Joel Nuñez)
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