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the fire put inside
written by DeaD_DyinG_PaiN05:19 PM 11/6/04| I cant control this anymore all I have is his picture and a ring I need this to make me whole. If I could only heal this open broken wounds and then I wouldn’t have to numb the pain. I take this needle the one that hurts the most I dip it in the black ink and poke it hard into my flesh and watch the tattoo emerge. The blood and ink mix it looks to beautiful see my bloody pain, look at it, embrace it. You like it when I feel your pain I guess I like it too. Your voice use to keep me sane now I cant hear anything but my heart beat from under the water. don’t pull me back up let me die just do that for me my friend. I have to fight to get out of bed each morning. In a couple of days it will be a year wow I know a full year without you I wish I wasn’t like this but we all have to do things we don’t want to do. I know you hate me like this I hate it to I just want to numb this agony and I will go back to the way I use to be the old Lee Ann the one you befriended five years ago. Take my hand make it light I hate this darkness. I tried really I did I tried to be better but I just got worse I’m sorry I know if you where here right now you would slap me and wake me from this depression but for now I just pull my hood of my face and walk, run away from myself till I cant anymore. I just lay in the street turn my music up louder and wait for a car willing enough to run me over. I know I promised you I wouldn’t cut again but you broke you promised so I will break every promised I made to you alright. You promised me everything and you didn’t honor those promises you I feel hate and I don’t want to hate you Patrick god I love you. You were my only friend for the longest time I only had you and now I don’t even have that. I lost everything worth keeping. All I have left to do is run.. So I run , run, run, far way I will never go back now no one can come close to me and get hurt I will just hurt myself enough said… |
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| » Comments / Feedback | by Schizophrenic_broken (11-6-2004 - 05:31 PM)
| wow, thats so touching, i love it. keep it up dude(ette) |
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