Today,
I couldn't stop,
The tears,
Pouring,
Down my cheeks,
From,
Swollens eyes,
To sting my face,
Yet,
It takes so much,
To keep it in,
To keep the pain inside,
At least while I'm with you,
Can't show,
Just how,
I feel.
Cuz you wouldn't
And couldn't
Understand,
It all.
Because,
I cant,
Guess I never will,
Ever,
Understand,
It all.
Maybe when I'm older,
If I live,
Past the weekend
I'll think back to these,
Hell filled days,
The days of gloom,
The days of pain,
And as I look,
At the scars of life,
The truth,
Engraved,
On my wrist,
I still won't
Ever,
Understand,
How I feel,
How I felt,
Cuz it's a mistery,
Deep in the,
realms of death,
Maybe someone,
Understands,
Well they think,
Because they feel the same.
But inside they don't know,
Cuz I'm fake,
The girl who writes,
These poems,
Aint the same girl,
You see at school,
Not the girl,
Who you think hates you,
(By the way,
She don't)
Cuz me,
As myself,
Without,
The illusions,
The fakes,
Pretends,
Is me,
The scars,
that define me,
The tears that make me,
Me.
So everyday,
when I say,
Goodbye,
Or even if I don't
Think about the real me,
The one,
You've never known,
Think of the ways,
You've hurt me,
The ways,
You made me cry,
The times,
You hurt me,
The days,
I've tryed to die.
Cuz it's all for you,
The show,
That I put on,
Everyday of my life,
The same,
The sme lies,
The same show,
And I'm getting bored of it,
Just wish,
For once I could,
Be myself,
Be me,
Be I. |
