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The Suicide Note...From my best friend
written by devils angel 1310:05 PM 11/21/04Dear anyone,
looking into the black hole of depression... I just cant seem to do it anymore...my whole life is failure and i havent done anything wrong. Maybe when i die and fall into hell...my life will be better and happier and well spent. i dont care if God goes and hates me for my addiction to cutting myslef, or taking drugs in which make me retarted. I dont care that my parents hate me because of my attitude and my looks and my beliefs...cause it aint my problem anymore. By the time you read this Ill aleady be dead...And you will not miss me...since no one liked me.
Also I wanted the thank everyone for the right to MAKE me want to die. and kill myself. and most of you will go and be oblivious and ask yourselfs why. but i dont give a shit anymore...you aint my problems... i DONT CARE! i dont need to worry to not be myself anymore. i dont need to worry when my dreams get shattered anymore...
But to my one dearest friend, I wish you hope in finding your place, as 1 day before i wrote this letter you yelled and told me that you wanted to die but werent going to kill yourself because you knew that someday...someday things would get better. i had yelled and said that things would never get better. well to my best friend...you almost made me not take the pills but i decided to anyway since...well i dont quite know. but i just didnt want to go on living....
now i wish u the worst lives in the world...i wont ever miss you not any of you...since i know that you wont miss me....
Goodbye...
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Author's footnotes and comments on this Poem:
this is true...I WAS THE FRIEND in the last paragraph...i tried to stop her she said that she wouldnt kill herself but i knew her and i knew that she would...I still havent forgiven her...and she is the person i based my poem "My Suicidal Friend" off of...she had emailed this message to everyone 5 minutes before she died...ill never forgive her...
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| » Comments / Feedback | by fightingmypast (11-22-2004 - 02:46 AM)
by Twiggy0117 (11-22-2004 - 04:09 AM)
| that was sad..... it almost brought tears to my eyes. sry for ur loss
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by (anonymous) (11-22-2004 - 09:38 PM)
| I'm sorry that you lost your best friend...but at least you can have a clear mind knowing that it wasn't because of you-but everyone else (accoring to your best friend). I hope you're okay...:) ~Christina~ |
by ashevil (11-23-2004 - 12:49 PM)
| ok that is so damn sad i'm sry for ur lost . first poem that really amost made me cry |
by (anonymous) (11-23-2004 - 03:36 PM)
| im not really sure what to say to help u get over ur anger. i suffer from depression everyday and i have done things in the past that have made me come so close to ending it all and all that i can tell u is to hold on and to see the bright side of things: she did hurt alot of people but those people hurt her everyday and her only escape was this>....all she wants now is ur forgiveness if no one elses |
by monkeybutt87 (11-23-2004 - 10:01 PM)
| thats really sad and iv had my old best friend right one like that and were not friends anymore...b/c she hates me b/c i told about her note and i got her some help.
takecare,
*~ Dee ~*
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by (anonymous) (11-24-2004 - 12:11 AM)
| omg i know saying sry wont help ease the pain or the anger or anything else u might feel, but i do want to say im sry about your loss and that my friend has come close to ending it all even tho i know that wont help either.
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by blackgothicblood (11-24-2004 - 04:00 AM)
| i'm very sry for your loss i don't even know why i'm saying this when i know it won't help |
by (anonymous) (11-24-2004 - 11:32 AM)
| your friend is a shit. i will never have forgiven a friend like that, after all the encouragement i've given... anyway, she's such a heartless pathetic bitch that it's just so right for her damned soul to burn in the forge of hell... i hate people like that. weak people who give in to the devil's whispers... cowards who sink in to their own chaotic world spun from an intricate web of delusions, despair, and self-pity... hopelessness creeping into their hearts for they know that salvation does not include them on the list of the saved... |
by Satyrn (11-25-2004 - 04:29 AM)
| Not that it'll help, and that you haven't heard it before- I'm sorry... I've had freinds kill themselves too, many don't even send out emails, just write letters... I had one that took a lot of time out and named all her true freinds- writing individual letters for each while she was in the hospital dying... I still haven't opened mine yet. I'm too afraid to I suppose. There are those people you never should let go and those you must... It sounds like this one is someone you shouldn't ever let go... Keep her in your mind, it's hard not to trust me... |
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