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Apology to a Best Friend
written by lost_cause06:01 PM 11/28/04I'm writing this the only way I know how
I'm sorry I can't seem to say it aloud
I'm sorry I made you feel so sad and alone
I still don't know why I'm bad decision prone
I wish you could forgive me and we could forget
I don't want to lose you; without you I'm shit
I need you to hug me; I need you to care
I'm extremely sorry that I wasn't there
But I can't try harder; I've tried as hard as I can
But for us to fall apart... That wasn't the plan
I wish that you would tell me what I can do
I'd do anything to help you through
Believe me or not I just want you to know
I feel like a fucktard for almost letting you go
I tried to change so that you would feel good
You don't understand I tried as hard as I could
I could never replace you 'cause I need you
Not some other person to help me get through
I want so badly for this to be done
You are my life; my star and my sun
There's so much to say I don't know where to begin
Because we haven't talked I've cut again
I don't know why I made that stupid mistake
Please forgive me or I might just break
I wish you would tell me what I could do
To make you feel like we all love you too
Believe it or not I don't care anymore
Until you forgive me I'll let the blood pour
Tell me what I have to change and I will
But if I can't fix me then I'll take the final pill
Just one more would take me out of your life
I feel like I cause all of your pain and your strife
So tell me how to change; I'd only do it for you
We were always the best, the only, the two
I feel so bad even though I didn't know
That I was pushing you away; making you go
If you never forgive me and hate me forever
Please tell me now so that I can sever
Everything that I've known; My only home;
The life I created including us both
Where we were best friends and no one else could intrude
Just tell me now how you want me to include you
I didn't notice or I would have changed
My only problem is that I don't know what to change |
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Author's footnotes and comments on this Poem:
My best friend and I got in a fight... I was a bitch... Yeah... I could kill myself for it... But I tried to apologize and I offered to change... She couldn't give me something to change into... It sucked... You know... That I was so willing to change all for my best friend and she wouldn't tell me how to change... I was going to throw away everything I was for her... She didn't tell me how... And still she feels like I don't pay attention... Like I replaced her with Ashley... I could never replace her... And it kill me that I said such mean things... But I told her I took them back and I tried to get her to forgive me... I TRIED TO WORK IT OUT... I hate crying but not as much as I hate admitting to crying... But now I have to admit that I haven't smiled since last monday... That I can't live with one of the only 4 or 5 people I love more than anything mad at me... Or feeling like I wasn't there... I did try... I just can't try any more... I don't have enough in me to give to her...
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