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Removing the Mask
written by IceBound03:55 PM 12/9/04"Tell him that tomorrow is your last day!"
those words hit me like a frieght train
still ringing in my head
my last day and don't want to tell you
i'd rather it be, you let me go...
because of this, no more late nights together
because of this, no more conversation over the phone
because of this, i won't be able to see you
because of this...
i fear we've reached the last page in this book...
i don't like it any more than you do
but how would it be possible to carry on
with no sound, no sight, no touch?
this bond that ties, my own mother
stripped it down to a single thread
and now for the first time in my life
i have no idea what to do...
i could sneak out
but you refuse
i could defy for what i believe in, US
but you tell me no...
i can't look at you without my heart choking
i know that i want this to go on
surpass this 'test' and recover
with OUR lives...
i want it so bad it hurts
i played my cards, i bluffed
i shouldn't have walked
now this dilema i'm faced with
is nothing new, but this time
i too worry of the out come
why must they try and break us?
why?!
what fucking right do they have
to break up my only salvation?
they're knocking down the barrier
in search for truth
they won't like what they'll see
they're tearing down the wrong wall
if it's me you want, take me...
i don't care anymore...
if they want truth, if they want justice
why not give them satisfaction?
will it please them to know
that everything up to now was a lie?
will if please them to find my past?
to figure me out and remove my mask?
for them to know that their lovely perfection
was actually a past-time, Alcohol-addicted,
self-mutulated, suicidal, pessemistic,
lost teen with no cause other than one
given to me since birth...
PERFECTION
above all else, that is really what they desire
of me and my life, and how i carry myself
if they really want the fucking truth
then they whould widen the light
and realize the figure next to me
yes it's her, told you you wouldn't like it
but the only reason i carry on
the only reason i don't just do myself in
is her, and i know that your narrow-minds
can't even begin to imagine how one person stopped me
maybe you should have thought twice before
entering this palace, look where you stand
behold my life of false image and destruction
realize that my love for her
is far more than your
Teenage-stereotypical, judgement
called 'puppy-love'
this is more than that
bigger than me and you
i will love her always forever
despite what fate has in store...
baby, if you're out there
if you are reading this right now
know that i am truly sorry
for what mishaps may come
what the future holds, i don't know
but the chance is now yours
whether we move on or not
with an understanding,
we will both get through this
and ultimately make us stronger people
just let my love to be known
the lease bit of consideration is all i ask of it
from you...
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thoughts on that fateful day: 12-8-04
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