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suicide
written by DeaD_DyinG_PaiN03:16 PM 12/23/04| I find it really surprising that you still find me beautiful after all this years of depression it’s a greater thing to be beautiful in your eyes. Am I still beautiful even with my suicide scars? Can you still look through them? What do you see when you look at me? A drunk slut as I ran out into the streets and I take a second to look around and I am all alone. I’m full of empty holes and I’m so cold. There you go one step at a time but I never listen so I ran up rushing into things and I only get the after shock. I no longer have a good side telling me what is wrong and what isn’t. if I took my life right now would I have the power to give to my loved ones the power of forgiveness but would they really end up hating me? I don’t think I can go on living if I cant even get passed this one fucking thing that’s all you are now Patrick a thing in my way and no matter how hard I push you push harder at me. I didn’t choose to leave you left me remember? I just want to know the truth about the whole suicide being ended. I cant seem to fight you anymore I need help and they do it for me. I hear you whispering in my ear “Lee Ann think about this what are you doing put that bottle down” but that is all you are now Patrick a whisper and maybe its just the wind. Or my mind playing tricks no one really knows but I do and I know I’m not crazy I let go but you wont you come to me in my dreams and tell me things are going to be fine but things aren’t fine nothing is. What did you guess I wouldn’t care that I loved you as a friend for 5 years and you commit suicide and I’m fine I’m all okay with the fact that you promised Patrick you promised me I need you to whisper all the things you did into my ear like before. I only dream of that day in the past and it hurts so bad to go back to that place. Its surprising that I am still beautiful even though I have been through this shit. It is a true gift to still breathe but the more I live the more I die…. |
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