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My thoughts...
written by ieatsmellysocks04:08 AM 1/1/05This is my most vulnerable moment
I need to clear my head
I need to forget my pain
Because if I don’t do anything
I know I’ll go insane
Im sorry
What im doing isn’t living
And this house isn’t a home
Even when im surrounded by people
I still feel so invisible and alone
I know I’ll never be anything
I look so fucking happy
Smiling in that picture frame
But if you look in my eyes
You can see my pain
This is my most vulnerable moment
Do you remember who I am?Do you miss me?Did you just forget about me like all the others?Do you remember my name?I wonder how your life is.I hope its better than mine because I CANNOT TAKE IT
I know I’ll never be anything
I can take the abuse
The abuse can take me
I know im alone now
In my ragdoll misery
ABUSE ME make me wish I was dead take your anger out on me
I beat myself up I cry myself to sleep I scar and bruise myself I wish I were anyone but me
I know im just your boneless slave
And you think you are the king
I love the abuse i know im needed now
Even though im just a dirty toy with a spine of string
No one listens when I try to explain
No one gives a shit if im in pain
No one speaks if I come near
Everyone pretends that im not here
So many things I do not know
So many secrets that you hide
I’ll never know the truth now
I’ll never know why you lied
KILL ME NOW END THE ABUSE
I never knew forever
Could ever be as long as this
I never knew I’d ever
Be hurt by hands like his
I need to get away
Its all secrets
That I cannot tell
I just wish I was a turtle
So I could hide in my shell
I'll never be perfect, even though i tried
I'll never forgive you for all the times you hit me when i cried
I know that your dissapointed in me
Because i can never be what you wanted me to be
I NEED HELP////I CANT TAKE THE ABUSE////Nothing,I am nothing///I know you hate me///That’s why you kicked me in the ribs////DO THEY REMEMBER?…////Do they miss me?///Does anyone?…///WHY DID YOU THROW A BEER BOTTLE AT ME///I TRIED TO BE NICE///tried to be good///But I’ll never be GOOD ENOUGH///Im sorry///I know I failed you///I WISH I WASN’T ME///You know I’ll never be anything///GO AHEAD AND RIP OUT MY HAIR///SWEAR AT ME TRIP ME TOUCH ME SCREAM AT ME MAKE ME WISH I WAS DEAD///I NEED HELP////NO ONE KNOWS///its my secret///I cannot tell///I wish I was a turtle///So I could hide in my shell///I NEED HELP I NEED HELP////IM CRYING FOR HELP BUT NO ONE HEARS///IM ALL ALONE TO DRY MY TEARS///
I KNOW IM NOTHING SO STOP YELLING AT ME |
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| » Comments / Feedback | by quiet_place (1-1-2005 - 07:08 AM)
| is this real? cuz if it is......then me n u have it bad |
by forgotten-suicide (1-1-2005 - 09:33 AM)
| Reading it is hurtful, but in my place knowing how it feels is worse. :*( |
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