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i die
written by DeaD_DyinG_PaiN10:41 PM 2/4/05| I close my eyes I’m alone once again, it’s a daily thing for me. I’m closing inside my heart is turning black and sometimes I wish it would get it over with. I Wish the end would come faster I’m worlds a disaster. I dream of you more and more each day. I hate the way I feel inside. I hate the way I cant help but cry when someone says your name. Why did I let you get so close? I’m running out of pain and you cant understand. I close my eyes wishing to see you again but when I close my eyes all I can see is you laying next to me telling me “its okay I’m here now, stop crying” now I lay awake remember that and I miss you. I wish you would have stayed, I’m broken and no one can see that not even through my eyes. I grab your picture and see you looking out at me smiling like you miss me. Do you miss me? I pray to who ever will listen that you do as much as I miss you. I look down at my empty finger where your ring was and the tears roll down. “Patrick I’m so alone, so cold, I’m so empty” I need you now. When I talk to Kris I close my eyes and he reminds me of you so much its scary. “I would give my life to see you happy again” maybe Geoff does care. Oh I don’t know what to think without your wisdom come on please. Why just tell me the truth… why did you leave me? I’m running out of ideas of what to do without you. Everything seems so empty even my insides. I try everything I know to ease this pain but I know deep inside the only thing that will is to be with you. I would give it all just to hear you say that you miss me so I know that you didn’t end it for my punishment. You were the only one that I never thought would walk away from me. This isn’t fair I touch your face and I lied when you asked me how bad it was I never saw it coming. I lay lifeless ghost white when they told me you were gone. I didn’t believe I told them they were wrong that you were just sleeping this is a joke he did it for laughs. I look at you name in that ugly stone on your grave with the words “ We miss you”. I lay down on top of that very ,miserable place and tell you how much I loved you and I close my eyes and see you smiling and hugging me. And I open my eyes and your gone. The world has turned its back on me and deep inside I’m broken. I cry you a ocean of tears each day people are telling me I’m not coping with your lose very good. The drugs make me feel alive because ever since you left I have felt hopeless, pain, agony, and miserable. The day you told me that you loved me and that I was the greatest friend someone could ever wish for that was the day I ever felt that I was truly loved The first time I felt tears of joy. I wish to god I could feel like that again. I sit here waiting but I don’t know why I am waiting. Waiting for you maybe I don’t know I close my eyes and see you smile and laugh like good times most people would love to remember that shit about the pasted loved ones. I hate it because its hurts so bad. I fall to my knees and scream for you to call me home. |
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| » Comments / Feedback | by I_heart_jack_black (2-4-2005 - 10:42 PM)
| You are just like me! (read 'me poems, u'll dig 'em!) good poem!:D |
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