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bleeding through
written by DeaD_DyinG_PaiN11:29 PM 2/4/05| It started out with a one hit how did I end up like this? Look at you, you are a failure, a druggie, a whore. How many more cuts can one person have on one wrist. Maybe it was the pills oh shit the pills how many did I take? When is this going to end? I hate you so much it kills me. I watched him slip away and I didn’t do one thing. Let me go I cant stand this hurt, this foreshadowing, this hatred, this unkind pain that lays deep inside of me and now its taking control. He tells me to stop but he doesn’t understand that my drugs care about me more then any man. And when I need to cry my blades wipe away my tears and fears. You say I’m strong I say I’m weak. You say I’m beautiful and I say deep inside you cant see the real me so how do you know? Lately I have been lost and hidden from the people so close around me. Now I’m left all alone please come back you fall from me and I need you now. See these tears look at them you caused this you heartless dick. This isn’t real this is the pills or is it the smack or the umm coke oh fuck it all I know is I cant breathe I’m falling. The only thing better then the trips and the bleeding from my wounds is to be around you to know you are next to me. Soon you wont even know who I am. Soon I will stop caring and the LSD can drown you out of my heart and mind. Sometimes I feel this extreme, intense feeling of powerless failure I let you down didn’t I? I’m sorry I’m not perfect but who is the one that has to constantly tell myself your gone> who has to go to bed at night hoping and pray for the strength to get up in the morning you didn’t even think of how this could have damaged me did you? |
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