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Keep Breathing
written by lost_cause09:49 PM 2/9/05I honestly have to say that falling asleep to your oxygen machine is the worst way to end my day...
I love you so much that it kills me to know that you are is pain and there is nothing I can do to help...
You say I should pray but I must tell you that since you have been sick I have given up on god...
Losing faith was so easy after praying for two years made you even more sick...
Why keep praying to something that could possibly be a lie?
They tell me you will be okay...
What do they know? They aren't doctors...
If you aren't going to make it then cut me open and let me bleed dry now...
I don't think I would have the strenth to kill myself if you die...
I would never speak again...
I wouldn't have a heart left in me...
It's no use trying to fall asleep...
I only end up with a headache and tears...
And as I cry I'm thinking about tomorrow...
Will you wake up?
Crying and tired I try to think of somthing to make me smile...
I can't...
Pills wouldn't help me and niether would cutting or burning...
This is an invisible pain that hurts so bad that cutting or burning wouldn't help...
Will I live to see tomorrow?
Will I ever be happy with you like this?
Your breathing is heavy and I am trying not to wake you with my sobs and my uncomfortable tears.
Sleep well...
Good night...
But I still can't sleep...
I'm scared and I'm thinking way too much...
I just want my Granny back...
The Granny who is strong and healthy...
But it seems I've lost that forever...
You're still alive though...
You're still there...
But what is there when pills and oxygen are required?
What is there but the medicine and heartache?
How could I live without you?
How could I ever smile again?
I want you to see my children...
And theirs after that...
I want you to be okay again...
To live healthy again...
As I chew on my pen I'm still awake...
Tired but thinking...
Crying and wondering...
Please keep breathing for me...
Always... |
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Author's footnotes and comments on this Poem:
comments... please... I wrote this when i stayed the night with my granny... who is sick and i love her very much...
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