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Broken Again
written by darktinkerbell10:35 PM 2/12/05another broken heart,
alone again,
but happy....
somewhat at least.....
I've pulled myself into
this place once again,
I'm pushing away
anyone who tries to come close
I want to be alone,
I'm back to my childish crushes,
but now, I'm so afraid of being hurt,
and I feel it's too soon
for me to date again,
I push them all away,
my friends push and push
for me to find someone else,
but....
after only a week of being single?
I am so confused, and lonely,
I trust no one,
everyone I've trusted has left me,
now I'm all alone,
broken again,
wanting so bad to cut,
so, I cut,
the familiar feeling
is very different this time,
the pain gets to me, and
I stop the blood from flowing....
this is not me anymore,
I've lost myself again,
I hate being alone,
when will this end,
those four months, are gone now,
and now, I'm just another girl to write down
in the book of his heartbreaks,
but, if he only understood,
my heart is not in one piece,
my heart is broken and I'm not sure,
it'll ever be fixed again...
but yet, I still keep looking for love,
waiting for another to break my heart...
to start the cycle over again,
again, I am broken, not even trusting myself...
hating me, the way I look,
I'm trying to change now....
trying to forget you is hard,
I try to hide behind these false smiles,
trying to have everyone,
leave me the fuck alone,
and let me get through the day....
which hardly ever happens
my heart is getting tired
and I don't want to love again,
my heart is not ready to love....
and it's not ready to heal,
but, I am ready to give up
on everything I want,
just to stay broken,
don't fix me, don't try to love me...
I won't let you in,
I've been broken again.... |
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Author's footnotes and comments on this Poem:
after my recent heart break, I never want to love anyone for as long as I live, I have 2 childish crushes, but I will never persue anything, even though they show inserest, I can not, and will not let anyone in, I want to be alone, and wait forever if I have to for my heart to really heal....
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