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Footsteps
written by Gothic_Native_Am_Girl0108:16 AM 3/20/05As I sit up in bed and remember the way I use to be
I'm not sure if I can stand one more nightmare of my old life
I use to be such a good girl,
I forgot how this all happened
My plastic smile gets faker every day
I quiet my breathing when I think your footsteps draw near
And in some way you don't know, you forced me to be like this
I've changed over the years and now I'm like this
I'm listening for your footsteps but they never seem to come
I wish I got to spend more time by your side
And am I anything like you once were?
I so badly want to forgive you for all this, but can't
If I hate you so much, why do I want you back?
Sometimes I have to remind myslef to take another step, take another breath
Whenever I felt pain I knew I could get my tool out at night
And cut you away
I know that the choices I've made are bad, but I can't stop
I'm not even sure if I can
Are those your footsteps I hear?
No, just the wind wipping at my body agian, feels like him
There are stories I've herd about you, but I don't know whats true
I have no memories to remind me of you, your not in any of them
There's only one thing left of you
But I don't know if that's real either
Once more I hear footsteps outside my door
But their not yours
If only I could wake up and have this only be a dream, it would all be okay
I try to brag about you, but your nothing special, nothing new
I'm sick of pretending that it's all okay
I'm tired of acting like it's all right
I'm fed up with saying that I'm fine inside
And I'm done with putting my Barbie smile on
What the fuck did I do, for you to do this to me?
My dark side is now starting to show
And they are scared of me
I like it that way
I lay here waiting once more
Needing your footsteps to be at my door
It's hard to admit that I've come to see
That for the final time your footsteps don't becken me |
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mom, I blame you for everything
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| » Comments / Feedback | by mishy0077 (3-20-2005 - 08:20 AM)
by VinnieG (3-20-2005 - 08:22 AM)
| thats a really good peom, i can tell youre a reall deep poet, not a wanna be goth |
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