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somebody did help
written by suicide-fairie03:30 PM 3/28/05lying on the floor
wrists to the ceeling
oh how i love this drunk pissed off feeling
now im missing you bad
its always nights like this this made me fucking sad
pissed of at myself because i told you i would change
i made a promise to myself that i would
and for once in my life i actauly felt that i could
but yet again i failed nothing diffrent from the normal
everyone saw it coming everyone accept from me
now im trying to cry in selfpity but no tears fall
i cant blame anyone but myself for the way i have become
would my life be the same if i didnt look apon self torture for help?
would i still be me?
ive tryed to change so many times and everytime i push someone aside
i cant win either way
one more person hates me everyday
dont try to help me for i cannot be fixed
you can try all you like but by the end you'l call me a bitch
i dont want your sympathy i dont want your attention
i just want your love
is that too much that im asking for?
iam just a person just like everyone else
i have a heart i have eyes
i can see everything you see
but threw a diffrent perspective
i love you for you
for everything that you ever did
even though you've hurt me
theres been more times you have made me smile
i put the badness behind
so count 1,2,3 now help me remind?
i could make you cry like you have never cryed before
i could hold a razor to your wrist and let you feel the pain that is sore.
i want to see you feel tha pain that i have felt
i have cryed for my sins i have blamed everything on myself
if did it for too long in my life
fedup of beeing nice, you cant walk over me like that
you think im so sugarcoated no i wouldnt hurt i fly?
the only thing ive hurt is myself
bleed till i die
well there's a differnt side of me
never been seen before
all the anger and frustration inside of me
now its ready to soar
i dont wanna break you
no im too good to do that
i just wanna hate you
but i love you too much for that
the anger will never soar unless you push me too far
dont worry you wont see the anger
kept behind four walls
but when you find me dead
i didnt kill myself
somebody did help |
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its just words to me
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