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Dear Mommy & Daddy
written by chaoticthoughts01:55 AM 3/29/05Dear Mommy & Daddy,
Mommy and Daddy I'm sorry for not being you're little girl. I'm sorry for fitting the mold. I didn't mean to be a disappointment to you, it just kinda happened.
I didn't mean to get into drugs, they kinda got into me. I didn't mean to be an alcoholic, it came to me. I didn't mean to lose my virginity so soon, I wasn't in the right state of mind.
I'm sorry for trying to commit suicide with the car you gave me, I have severe depression. I didn't mean to commit suicide in you're house, I just wanted you to feel the guilt that I do. I didn't mean to try to commit suicide when I was 12 in front of mommy, my rage started very early. I didn't mean to overdose on pills to die, I hate myself that much.
I didn't mean to try to stabbed daddy with a knife, at the time it was either me or him. I didn't mean to punch mommy, at the time I was defending myself. I didn't mean to be so troublesome, I couldn't help it.
I'm sorry for running away all those times, I just wanted to be free. I didn't mean to steal money all those times, I was trying to support my habit. I didn't mean to break in at night, I needed my supplies.
I'm sorry for dropping out of school, it was just too much for me. I'm sorry for not being what you wanted, but now I'm a person who we both hate.
I'm sorry for all the nights when I didn't come home, I know you guys didn't get much sleep. I'm sorry for all the alternative homes I was placed in, I know it was difficult for you to visit.
Mommy & Daddy, I'm no longer you're little girl, but I'm not yet grown up. I'm no longer you're little ray of sunshine, more like a dark cloud over you're hope. I'm no longer one of you're brag about child, more like avoid the topic of me. I'm sorry for everything I caused you, but I'm afraid it may never be okay. |
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| » Comments / Feedback | by Ev0l_sin#TRIP (3-29-2005 - 02:12 AM)
| WOW man, thats deep,, i can relate to it ALOT!,,keep writting |
by barbed_circle (3-29-2005 - 03:39 AM)
| wow thats amazing. thats so deep |
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