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Brain Freeze
written by DeaD_DyinG_PaiN01:07 AM 4/11/05| Have you ever loved someone so much just their name gives you chills? Have you ever loved someone so much, every time they look at you your heart just simply plain out stops? Have you ever loved someone so much that it kills you so bad not to be near them? Have you ever wonder if they love you like this back? Have you ever wanted to die because they don’t care? Have you ever loved someone so much that when they walk away from you, your heart dies and your soul withers? Is it dumb of me to feel this way about him? I mean he doesn’t even see me. I love him more then he can understand and all he does is hurt me. Stops calling, stops caring all together and then once I’m happy again he starts caring and it throws me off balance. He makes me feel so weak, so powerless and useless and at this point I just want to die or hide away somewhere. He brings me to my knees and opens me up just to damage me more. And the sad thing is I think that’s what he wants. I’m the mouse and he is the cat, beat me up leave me dead and bloody and then you come back after I heal to do the same thing again. I feel as if he is killing myself and my soul slowly and so slow I can’t stop it because I don’t even realize it. I fell so hard for him and he likes to see me suffer. Let me out I need to leave this place and leave him. I have to tell him that he is only killing me more then loving me. Oh god I can’t every time I try I choke inside and I need to stop and breathe. Which brings me to the beginning, have you ever cared about someone so much that you just want to die rather then have them know the true about your feelings? Have you ever lusted someone so much that every time you close your eyes you see him? Have you ever needed to get away from all these feelings so much you have to cut them away? Have you ever needed to cry but its like all the water in your body just stopped working? “us” is going no where and I need to break free. Have you ever been lost so deep into his bullshit and lies that you just love him anyway? Well I have, and its not pretty… |
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Love stinks!!!
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