i'm gonna say this so maybe you can understand,
that i'm trying as hard as i can,
but all i can do to stop me from breaking down,
is to already start at the ground.
so maybe if i write you this,
i will realize how truly hard it is,
to just give up on all this pain,
and all the hurt i continue to gain.
i try to put the knife away,
and maybe somehow, someway, but not today.
i try to turn the darkness into light,
i try to turn this wrongness into right.
but not here, and not now,
i know i'll figure it out somehow,
but until then it's all i have,
why is it such a pain in the ass?
so maybe in a different way, different time,
i'll be able to announce that i am fine.
but until that day arrives,
i'm holding on, just barely alive. |
