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Messages In Pieces
written by PalirBeauJeanne12:08 AM 4/21/05I fear an empty darkness closing in
Engulfing all my cherished memories and I
Hurt when I am powerless
Forced to watch from the sidelines
I seek only your love and forgiveness
For all the wrong I've wrought
I watch the world crumble
Crumbling slowly, decaying deadwood
I contemplate the "what ifs"
What if I died today and I never said
My words
I leave behind glass tears
Now you will always know my hurt
Digging into you
Deep
I kill the creature within
Eating at my insides
I know, but I play it like I don't
Like I don't know you're faking it
I hope you understand my feelings
Because I can't
I can't even understand myself
I dream a dream to have a dream
Far away from reality and I
Sing but you will never hear
The beautiful voice behind
I dance safe alone in my room
Safe in sanity
I detest the way you're looking at me
The way you always think me I'll and I
Drink my sorrows up in pints
Spilling, flowing endlessly out of my heart
I step across the boundaries
Regardless of warnings
I fall into your arms
Your strong arms, always welcoming me in
I break the bondage that holds me tight
Freedom is a bird, she needs to fly
And I
Take what I am given
Never complaining; I'm thankful
I
Ask only simple things
Love and understanding
I hide to protect you
From knowing the monster within
I fight my own battles whilst everyone watches
I fall
Deep within the deep abyss of purgatory
Anticipating your next move
The choice you make is yours and I
Salvage all my memories
Kept inside my head
I lie, knowing it's wrong
But what is right when no one is?
And I scream
No one hears my plea
As I stand, isolated in my own fears
I medicate obsessively on you
Overdosing on your internal beauty
Reminiscing over the past
Your love runs through my veins like a disease
I can't escape your embrace
I catch all that is fallen
For I am one of the fallen
Falling forever
I save the hurting but I can't save myself and I
Cut to feel what I forgot is real
Too numb
I must be dead
Lost inside myself
I choke on tears, clogging my throat
How can I breathe with your bitter hate down my back?
Pressing
Another weight down
And I sin so much
I must be on my way to hell
So you say, and I
Sleep on knives
The very knives I've been stabbed in the back with
By you
I live to die knowing I'll be released of this pain
Someday
Six feet under
This time I'll catch every fallen star
And make you happy like I never could
Calling out your name
Can you hear me?
Etched inside, I'll forever be apart of you
As you are to me |
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Messages, into small fragments. Each towards a different person.
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