my pain is flowing,
red and liquid,
away from me, leaving me
empty inside,
i can't feel anything,
i'm scared now.
i am not a fake
i am not a lier
my pain is true
my pain is deep,
and there's nothing else
that will help me
pick up the peices
that are still dropping to the floor.
i wish i could tell you
the truth about me,
what i really am,
but i fear that you,
you won't understand.
for i am a hypocrite,
but please don't hate me,
i did it all for you.
but now the time has come,
i feel that you should know;
please don't judge me,
just listen and know
that i couldn't tell you before,
because sometimes i just
can't find the right words.
i cannot tell you
how many times i
wanted you to know
that you are not alone,
but i always got scared,
that once i opened myself up to you,
that you would find me ugly,
and i would be left,
all alone.
but now, nothing matters,
i don't care anymore,
i love you
and that is all that i am |
