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At last
written by SuperBob11:40 PM 7/3/04It's times like these that make me wonder...
How could I have lied to myself so many times before?
I showed the world and the people around me,
NOTHING touches me...nothing at all would make a change in my life....
How could I have listened to those words?
I made it so I came across as this cold hearted bitch...I was being her and doing it well...I had it down pat....
How could I have surpressed everything?
The population never knew that I was affected...no one ever knew that I had feelings too...I made that happen
How could I have been so ignorant?
Sure I was young and thats not an excuse....but hell...something should have been different...being young makes u susceptible....
How could I have built so many walls?
Then the time came when everything fell to the ground...When everything I knew myself to be finally disappeared...
How could I have lasted this long?
People want me to go back to the old me...I canNOT do that...Too many lies I would have to face
How could I have never told the truth?
At last I have come to realize it...At last I will share it with the masses...I AM AFFECTED...EVERYTHING TOUCHES ME...MY BARRIERS NEVER WORKED....I was all just a lie to myself and to you...I am sorry...But I liked that better than having emotions...Yet...Like always...All of you were right...I was wrong...I am not detatched...I am locked on.... |
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Author's footnotes and comments on this Poem:
alright so i can finally say that everything is taken to heart by me...i have a heart...and its got a lot of a pain...but no one ever knew that because i wouldnt let them...i would hide everything...and hid it so well i would believe it wasnt there...but it always was...and now i am to suffer my own consequences
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