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There, I said it
written by AthiestAnarchist06:02 PM 1/24/05Untitled poems
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If she won’t help me, maybe he will
Screams for help, no one answered
I scream louder and longer and my heart keeps beating faster
I can’t control my breath
Waiting for my death
Knowing I’m about to die,
I lay there quietly as the time passes by
Everything turns black
I can’t look back
No up or down
I wander around
Running into walls
I’m stuck in this pit
I scream for help and have a fit
I feel blinded
Whatever I’m looking for, I’ll never find it
Remembering, seeing it all once again
Falling down, down and down again
You brushed me off as if I wasn’t here
Talk about me as if I’m not there
Disappearing into the darkness I fade away
I’ll step into the light some other day
You see me as some unaccomplished bum
You’re eating something, GIVE ME SOME!
I’ve starved myself of everything just to figure out
Us ever being agreeable, I doubt
Talks of 2 years from now
Take a fucking bow
Come on! Do it again, tear my life apart
You’ve already got a really good start!
Never-ending cycles of doom come around
Never stopping until I hit the ground
Brought down by my love and anger
You kept me so close, I want to talk to strangers
Keeping me under your wing
I can’t stand it when you sing
You wanted to know what was wrong and I just gave it all to you
It’s not me, it’s you.
Annoying little instances tear my mind down
Tearing it apart with every sound
Click your tongue and snap it at me
Have you noticed what is happening?
You make me hit the walls and you make me go insane
You wonder why I want out of here…you drive me to where I cannot regain
My sanity
My hope
My dream
Nothing is ever what it seems
You don’t give a fuck!
You want me gone!
You told me this a few days ago
I cut myself…so?
Tell me you don’t want me doing that isn’t going to make me change
I don’t care who thinks I’m strange
I lied to make it all go away
The talking
The yapping at me
The arguments
My only friends
Driving them all away because of myself being caged up…what message does that send?
Trapped behind a wall of unselfish pleasing … after all my work, I am wheezing
I try so hard, it’s never good enough
I’m not you mom, tough.
I can’t be who you want me to be and I don’t know how you’ll take that
I’m not your average band rat
I do thing because I want to maybe do something with it when I’m old and grey
I do have my goals…even to this day
You know what I want to be, I want to write
That’s just what I’m doing tonight
My friends won’t change me, but neither will you
You can try your hardest to try make me believe
You don’t want to change me
Admit it, you hate the way I am right now
You think I’ll grow out
What if I stay like this forever, mom, will you kick me out?
People tell me every day, they love me to death and never want to loose me
My friends tell me this, I can stay with them if that is how it will be
This is probably making you mad but this is all I had to say
If you want me to, I’ll go away for a few days
All you someone who actually cares
Someone who will be there.
I want to stay here, you know that I do
I love you guys and I know you love me too
There, this is your answer to everything…my feelings, everyday
I feel trapped, like I can’t get out. I don’t know what to say.
I know you just want to protect me
But, you don’t see things like me
I don’t see what you see either but things have changed
I have friends that are older and that’s how it’s going to stay.
I don’t know how many times I can say this with out a shout
These guys my age are immature in huge amounts
I don’t want help, and I don’t need it
There I said it… |
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| » Comments / Feedback | by I_heart_jack_black (1-30-2005 - 04:34 PM)
| WOW! that was AMAZING! =0 |
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