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written by suicide_penguin08:49 PM 2/5/05I confronted my dad today
As I never did before
But this time I was confident
And I banged open his door
He looked up so shocked
He had a smirk upon his face
But a smile quickly replaced it
And that smirk left without a trace
I began to say something
But my tongue lost its mind
And tears came to my eyes
There were no words that I could find
Finally I let it out
I knew it would be there
'Why do you beat me at night?
This really isn’t fair'
“Oh baby girl come sit next to me
And we can have a talk
If it makes you feel any better
We can even take a walk”
It looks like I had no option
He was already out the door
Then he held his hand out for me
But in words he said no more
We walked in piece and quiet
But it wasn’t silence for me
My heart was screaming painfully
Begging him to set me free
My father broke the silence to say
“You know what makes me so mad?
It’s that you girls always disrespect me
When I’m your fuking dad”
I became oh so furious
Is this the man I used to know?
There must be a devil inside his body
Forbidding his kindness to show
Dad when do we disobey you
When you beat us every night?
Should we just stand there like broken machines?
Or should we get up and fight.
I realized I thought out loud
Because he looked at me and said
“Oh I can do much more than this
But I’m being nice instead”
Tears streamed down my eyes
For I knew that this was true
My father had all the power in the world
And his beatings were nothing new
At that moment his mood changed
And I knew I was in for a beat
I broke into a nippy run
But he caught me in the street
He dragged me by my hair
And into the alley he went
He kicked me like the usual
And pushed me into the cement
I cried and I screamed
I couldn’t take this anymore
He picked me up and touched me wrong
Then threw me in the car door
Before he started to drive
I got out and ran away
I was going to call the police on him
I could not stand this another day
But then I realized I was hurt
On every single part of my body their was a bruise
So this is what my father does to me
This is what he wants to choose
I ran inside the house
And I was so surprised to see
My little loving sister
Staring right back at me
All at once she understood
Because she always goes through the same
She came along and hugged me
And we shared each other’s pain
I began to cry so much
Like I never cried before
But this time my sister took care of me
She hushed me and said “no more”
“No more” could have meant a million things
But at that moment I couldn’t ask
I wanted this loving bond between me and my sister
To forever and always last
We sat there together
Sharing all our tears
Crying out all our pain
And the sorrow from all these years
Soon she cried herself to sleep
And I stood up writing this
There will always be other days for me
And tonight I will not miss
I kissed my sister on the head
And in the bathroom I lay down
I couldn’t take my life anymore
Then in my blood and tears I drowned |
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| » Comments / Feedback | by Marigold (2-5-2005 - 09:04 PM)
| WOW... That is sad... Awesome job, and I hope it isn't true. |
by slice_my_wrist (2-5-2005 - 09:36 PM)
| Wow that made me cry :( hope its not true but it was really good. |
by devilchild01 (2-7-2005 - 07:08 PM)
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