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My story of being a cutter
written by suicide_penguin02:27 PM 3/13/05Think bout this,
Having to wear a jumper 24/7 is not cool, Knowing that if u take it off you will get stares and peoples stereo typical comments, judging you because u cut and have problems. Having to hide yourself from the people you love and pulling away from everything because your so scared of being exposed, being rejected,judged or knowing the one thing that helps will kill your loved ones, Knowing what u have done to yourself to ease the pain. Having to go out side everyday and hide yourself behind a fake smile and hoping to god that no one touches your arm in case they feel anything underneath your shirt or just because you cant bear to be touch-the pain is to intense. Having to lie to your family when you wear jumpers in the heat and stop going to the pool or beach, giving them every excuse u have to save yourself, having to hide a secret that large to the people you love kills u inside, knowing that one day they will find out or you will go to far and have them find you unconscious,bleeding on the floor and having to see you like that, knowing you did it to yourself and having all your friends at school literally turn around and walk away; leaving you alone,cold and having no-one to talk to therefore cutting deeper, longer and faster than you ever have done before. Having to go through this is more pain than you will ever realize, Seeing the "trend" cutters at school, showing everyone there matching designs that they have cut in there skin, and thinking only if they know what is was like to be a true/real cutter and only cutting because nothing else helps and knowing it is wrong but being unable to stop yourself, They spread, deepen and scar your soul away. Knowing you absolutely hate cutting and regret ever starting the addictive pain relief and being so scared of being exposed that every time you go somewhere or are with another person you get this feeling in your gut- hoping to god they wont see/find out whats happening....Only if they knew... |
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Author's footnotes and comments on this Poem:
**Please dont judge me, or anyone else who cuts, you never know you may be the cause of their death** think about it.
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| » Comments / Feedback | by ForEverLonley (3-13-2005 - 05:03 PM)
| ....i know wut ur going through, but u have to stop ''Feeling sorry for yourself'', i know i sound liek i dick, but ur not the only wun who cuts,....u think to much of it, ur killing urself, when little 7 years olds in somepl;aces are working their ass's of to stay alive,ur foolish for tryign to take urlife away, and it IS feeling osrry forur self.i'm sorry for being a bitch, and i do cut to, but...think of that |
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