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Struggles
written by Khaotic07:41 PM 4/6/05| See everything is not alone touch of the sun and one burn to your face you will escape with a tension keeping your distance and you will not be blown out short like a candle without anything consuming its wax just dripping out the time of your life is being melted away such a newborn way in life to end it all just another candle in life broken down to pieces and melting all your life feeling so desperate you made your life too hard to understand now all your future is fading away and your past is withering within you consuming your life your mother never loved you and your father has forgotten you now you cant stand your life you must end it just as the love has hit your head you felt so warm inside like the burning candle burning now will you ever survive tonight this to ever love someone again or end up like a broken heart burning away like a rotting floorboard or end up in space into pieces that dont exist and become a newborn person choosing the options of your life such an odd choice the suicide overfloods your mind will you begin to realize there is more to this ugly life or just end up another lost in time fading away such a withered soul sulking into nothingness such a voidance inside your life to love another cant find another but when you look outside you see nothing but selfish little people going around in circles feeling so happy yet you look so gloom when you feel everything you had it up to the point of no existence you stare into the hollow emptyness left between your heart and soul do you stay up at night praying to feel good or end up letting it eat you apart did you goto room a room to cry or cut your wrists and let it all drip down the dreams you use to have as a child has now withered away like a candy stolen from a baby such a very dark world thru the darkful nights you feel so trapped and the happyness has been stolen away can you feel as you scream inside your mind all the pain still stays but a relief or am i just another lieing soul to you do i give you life when i speak of these things or do you wish for it to all fade away and do you dream of death as a releasement to this damaged being you are can you feel it all wither away each night can you shout out and feel close to the suicide or getting tired of trying and just accept it all see there is away to get a brand new life without the suicide but does it drive you crazy you just want to kill everyone or anything that hates you like they disrespected you and all your life you just as tired of this old shit can you accept that life kicks you around and everyone is against you or ignores you you just want to end this shitty life but yet you feel you need to find away to throw it all away or make others pay or just today you feel this way whatever betrayed and wrecked your life they will loose there own mind and end up being someone they arent do you want them to win by letting everything go why the hell do you try not to be you now i know how the shit is with you let everyone stomp all over you now you can have it your way cause everyone will be sick of your excuses that you claim to have but now im truely done with all your emotional shit nothing can turn back time and stop whatever bothers you can you truely tell me whats the difference from being mad and sad now tell me do you wish to die tonight im done with the all the lies and all the blame now all you know you cant turn back time and make it go away just try to escape by the weakling way suicide is that what you choose why that because its the only thing you think that will escape you from all this torment so tell me im sorry im just falling to anger now why all these emotions bother you cant find my own mind cause all the time i feel the same but im not so ashamed to live my life just hide myself away from all these struggles i cannot escape this time but now we live each day everyone is the same and lives with struggles and figures away to escape it by either hating or playing games but everyone struggles to hold on and keep there sanity |
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