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My Own Destiny
written by Khaotic08:59 PM 4/6/05oh shit created my own destiny not sure why is it meant for me
each breath of life eachday makes me careless creating my pain
always being insane always feeling pain always meant for me
or is it that i been a animal to my own reality oh shit why me
why have i been locked inside my ownself yet im so pure
why is it me or is it really me i have no idea what is me anymore
oh shit why me oh shit cant it be my mind i can never trust
labeled unknown i label my ownself my own sanity is locked in me
why does it have to be why do i forget myself locked in myself
cant ever find away out of my own twisted mind am i really dreaming
or is it im living someone elses life oh shit why is it for me
cant ever follow my own lies can never trust my desires always
fantasizing of my own torture does that make me insane why is it me
can i ever see whats going to be left of me insane is made for me
is there a such thing as crying if so why isnt it meant for me
emotions always make me laugh it creates my own pain cant you see
inside my mind its a dark twisted place lurking in my skull can you see
but i never gave into my own twisted ideas yet i die piece by piece
each day confronted by them yet they never see me always hitting me
it pushs me to the edge slowly but noone ever sees my own pain
why i hate my life why cant i ever find love i feel like ripping my heart
apart feeling this weird feeling inside do i really want to do i have to
why am i so alone why am i lost in my own pit of insanity no way out
desires always failed to create my dreams but never meant to be
why am i always forgotten why am i so unreal i feel it is me no exit
yet i keep creeping up on myself i wait for myself to call for me
but every minute will i live this way eachday suffering from insanity
oh should i...die, oh should i...die, oh will i...die, oh f**k shit
will i become dead tonight will i see my own face sleeping tonight
will i be able to be alive tomorrow more suffering begins every hour
the pain inside my mind infilterates my heart yet i cant find myself
lost inside my own f**ked reality cant i ever breathe fresh air
or is it im already dead why must i survive this tormenting pain
i feel so unloved so broken why must i survive for all this for...
life is so f**ked i take my heart and rip it apart f**k it all i am dead |
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