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Loving You!
written by Khaotic09:19 PM 4/6/05loving you as it seems to be a tradegy for me
am i already bothering you cant see through you
will you have fun now when i am dead just for you
i think im just happy that i love you alot...
my heart is already ripped apart just to be with you
then you told me you hated me, ripping me apart
as i feel so cheap feel so murdered feeling dead
im not like what you said my mind is gone my day is lost
am i truely happy now, i think i lost something good
loosing myself already not knowning what todo anymore
but why did i do to make you hate me, what did i do to
make you hate me, whats the cost of happyness i am low
lower as can be left alone here to rott as its meant to be
leaving me to be alone in my own darkness rotting alone
my head is already gone from me, i have the suicide within
but when will my pain end until i take this nife to kill
but will my life be better tomorrow or will it kill me
slowly as i am falling to my own pit of dispair shall
i cry alone in the darkness or hunt for my own happyness
will i end up murdering my enemys or will i end up insane
all the pain as i feel it inflict on me heavyer...
as it twists my heart crushing my blood flow i see my own
face, i can see myself in my dreams dying repeatly as
the pain grows stronger will i reach for the nife tonight
is meant for me to live on ignored and killed beaten
within me, as it crush my reality i can see my own face
mock myself as i try to scream it all out nothing is out
all trapped within me noone there to hold on too lost
inside of me, dying within me i suffer more and more each
day feeling like i've lost something already throwing
myself against the wall creating more pain for me to take
will i start to believe i been rejected out of this world
cant i ever be happy will i live with this pain will i
or will i ignite all my pain and end up dead tomorrow
how will i be released when my life is raped from me
as i watch my enemys watch me suffer is it meant to be
will i leave in peace or die like the rest of the forgotten
watching you smile, why do i see your face in my mind
time to ignite my pain in my mind will i die why is it me
i dont have my strength to escape, leaving my ownself to
die in my mind have the space for love but nothing found
never found something for this life is it time for me to die
noone listening to me i will die, i will murder my own pain
you are alive i will die, you are alive i will die for you
time for myself to die, time for myself to die, time to die
as i see another die i always wanted to be what they are
cant ever follow my own steps dying slowly nothing for me
sometimes i wish i could be just like you something alive
never hiding the truth that is killing me, im dying slowly
the feelings you had never gave me thought of what i did to you
constantly rejected from my reality im going to go fall down
and beat myself now, no feelings came back too me falling down
never was strong as i use to be reaching for my own insanity
the truth you as i am watching everyone around me alive and
happy but its all the same, i wanted some of that too cant get
it ever, i feel myself never sleeping at nights i cant stand
will i ever be with someone like you, this pain i feel within
just to find some love always hated by people like you...
i want something noone feels this pain just like i do....
lately my own nightmares wont go away, why wont i stop it
can i ever i go ahead of my nightmares and make it reality
feeling as i am not something special something unreal to be
no anger for me just a lonely expression of pain and suffering
will i always be the same did i ever prayed to hard for something
will there ever be away for me to be loved, im suffering within
as i see my own pain mock me, am i already way into far...
everyday i just think about death, my fate is always messed up
i can never be what i see but i am honest i lay down at night
will i wake up tomorrow or should i just end it all today...the
pain, everything i see i can never be i am such a tormented person
so i see your face its so real i wish i could be real, never alive
what is meant to be for me pain is my best friend for me made friends
with death is it meant for me... |
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