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My pain (My Truth)
written by Genocide Reaper06:11 AM 8/11/04You ask me what makes me, me.
You ask me what makes me tick.
You obviously already know what makes me sick.
So I'll tell you why I light the whick.
Fire burning, candle melting.
Times waning, so I'll explain.
My Pain, My past, My Present.
Everyone ask me am I scared.
Scared of what? I shake because my Nerves are shot.
I twitch because my veins are cold.
I shiver because I see me in the mirror.
I know my face is blank, and my smile is Rank.
Its because I have a Dark Fate...
I keep asking myself..Does anyone miss me yet?
If I die. I know nobody will care.
They may say so. But I know thats not true.
I don't really feel a need to commit suicide. More of a Urge to Release all of the stress with Homocide.
Did I lose some one? Did I lose something? Have I had a Mind before this? These are the questions that continue reoccuring.
My parents weren't perfect. But you still don't hear me Bitch.
Because I don't like to whine. If I complain. I can explain. And if I embaress myself. I feel suicidal.. Just because I can hear echoing laughter in my head. So Annoying. I want to make it stop. To see what people say behind my back. Or as I walk away. God damn.. I hate this place.
Now I'm venting all I'v repressed. Why?
Just to let you know. I do want to die..But not because of Sorrow.
But because I'm just Tired.. Restless.. Why am I such a coward? Why don't I pull the trigger or slit my wrist?
Well. I'v pulled the trigger, I'v slash more than 75% of my body, and burnt at least 20%. I know pain.. I wish that my last bullet would have fired.. Some times, I can feel this deep gripping pain hold my chest.. Suffocating me.. I'v awoke from dreams that were devastating. I bide my time though. And I wait to die.. For I know, since I am Ready to Accept my death.. My last breath. Will be here, much longer than expected. |
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Author's footnotes and comments on this Poem:
Maybe I feel like I just needed to get something off of my chest OK!............
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| » Comments / Feedback | by SuperBob (8-11-2004 - 06:15 AM)
| wow that was powerful and so very touching....*mando bear hug*...if i didn despise myself when i cry...i would have let that bring tears to my eyes...but i felt your emotion truly very strong |
by devil-dick (8-11-2004 - 08:13 AM)
| wow. brilliant, amazing. speechless.... |
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